i.have.fallen.apart.right.in.front.of.you

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long

I will never know myself
Until I do this on my own
I will never feel anything
Until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything
Till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

`-tagboard_


`-the gurl_

Fahimah Azman
Crescent
3[S]2'04
2[G]1'03
1[G]1'02
phoebe_for@hotmail.com
Curie
Ex-cckpian
DramaQueen aka DramaMama
ELDDS
PBMC Angklung&DK
OBS *Bo Seng 'AH' Bo Seng member*
Woodlander
Totally Obsessed
Blur Queen
Full of Nonsense
Brain dead
Sleepy Head
Born to BE and DO good :P
Optimistic
Cheerful
Dreamy
Lame
Confused
Late Comer
Messy


`-her lurf_

*Linkin Park*
*Harry Potter*
*Daniel Radcliffe*
*Chester Bennington!!!*
Misha Omar
Green!!! *Esp. Lime Green*
Chocolates
Cats *So CUTE*
Hamsters
Romantic Stuff
Acting
Debate
Angklung
ROXY
Shopping
T.V.
Comedy
The O.C.
F.r.i.e.n.d.s.
Will and Grace
Soccer
Real MAdrid
Man Utd.
Pride and Prejudice
History
Mystery books
Archie
Sweet words
Talk
Shout
Laugh
Jokes
Smile
Originality
Attitude
Elmo
Cookie Monster


`-her hate_

*War*
BitterGourd
Stress
Tension
Liars
Hypocrites
Sour Stuff
Words Of Insults
People who hate
Deceit


"Don't Hate. Only Love."


`-wishlist_

Digi Cam
A Cam phone
NEW Linkin Park album
LP book 'From the Inside: LP's meteora'
A1 for all subj(i noe its too much to ask)
Get to a good JC
To always smile
To always be myself
Happiness
A caring soulmate
Stop the obsession
The truth
For ELDDS to always be ROCKING
More Acting opportunities
Perbayu to gain recgonition
An angklung set of my own
More Friends
For EVERYONE I noe to always smile and be happy :)


`-LPLinks_

Lp Mp3
Official Webbie
LP on Yahoo!
Lp Lyrics
Cool Lp Web


`-LPWords_

**==Lyric of the Week==**


>>Numb >>LP >>Meteora


I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes


[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]


I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you


Can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you


[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste is more than I can take


I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you


And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you


I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you


I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be


`-archive_
September 2004 October 2004

`-links_
Amalina
Andrea
Diana
Dianah
Ferri aka *sis*
Hafizah
Hao Wen
Janessa
Jeanette
Ling Fang
Liyana
Lynette
Michelle
Mingee
Nadiah
Namira
Pei Ting
Rina
Shaminah
Shapnem
Sharmeen
Shenty
Wani

`-credits_


Blogger
Blogskins
Photos
Lp music
My Sis=Ferri=
Thanks loads for helping wit the Blog! :p


[[do not remove the credits]]


MTV Cribs - Chester Bennington
Linkin Park






20040923

LP =You've Become A Part Of Me=


I'm DAMN OBSSESSED!!!
What is the cure for these
obsessions?


First, my obsession
starts with hmmm...
loads of stuff
Lyk I had the obsession for
Harry Potter n Daniel Radcliffe
Den obsession with SPIDERMAN
Hmmm... Charmed, O.C
F.r.i.e.n.d.s
(wil always be obsessed wit it)


AND CURRENTLY (drum roll);P


LINKIN PARK!!!


Yeah. Yesterdae and Tuesday,
I was supposed to be studying
but instead of tht I was too
OBSESSED!


I just had to surf the net
and check out about LP
get more pics n videos of em


Oh my latest OBSESSION is
CHESTER BENNINGTON!



Its just tht his voice just
melts my heart
ESP. wen he sings songs
lyk MY DECEMBER and
BREAKING THE HABIT


And HE just gives me ENERGY
wen he screams his head off
LP is so DAMN COOL...
I LUV CHESTER!!! HE ROX!


OK FAHIMAH BCK TO REALITY CHANNEL!!!
Sighs. Tomoro: ENG EXAM.
What If I fail???
I damn scared leh...


BACK TO MY OBSESSION.


I'm still obsessed with ... (SECRET INFO)
But not as obsessed
Cos dun see ... tht often animore!
Forget abt ... CUTENESS...


Well good luck to everione
FOR THEIR EXAMS K!!!


becoming numb``_____ 9:19 PM

20040917

LP =You'll Always Be My Fear=

Wah Im so busy this past few weeks!!!
Ahh... Got so many Homewok...

So many tests! EXAM COMING!

STRESS!!! TENSION!!!

Oooh.Tht reminds me. A bit of LP

(I noe I crazy abt LP lah)


Lp== A place for my head



I'm so sick of the TENSION

Sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like

I'm owe you this



Find another place to feed your greed

while I find a place to rest



I should have just said it to her!!!

What I'm so afraid of?

You'll always be my FEAR!!!

I have nothing to lose or gain! WHY???

Today, If I say it... So paiseh!!!


Nevermind... Today...

Without her knowing...

I shall say it...

HAPPY BURFDAE!

May your life be blessed with happiness!!!

:P


becoming numb``_____ 7:44 PM

20040913

LP =I'm so tired of this deceit=

Bah!!! Today.Its me.
In skool. Yeah. Still
In skool at this time.
Sighs. Where? At comp lab.
Hehe. Borrowed Stephen King's
book frm Lib.


Hehe. Want to be
Nerd. But where got time to
read book now? Must go n study!
haha. I'm still struggling to
finish my hw and I wanna talk
abt studying!!! Still got reading
portfolio stuff to finish. Sighs.
Today. Finished Lesson at 3.30.
Lit lesson. Damn tired. Slept a
while during free period just now.
Went into a deep freaking sleep.
yeah.


Well, had a dream yesterday. About
two pple in one night. Was it nice?
Or it bad? Or did it mean sumthng
bad? I rmb one of the dreams. The
other, I'm trying bloody hard to
rmb wat it was abt.
wat issit abt? Hmmm... I hate it wen
I forget. I have to squeeze my brain
out just to rmb. WHAT ISSIT???


Wen I rmb, I'll be so happy. Haha...
The first dream... I thnk it meant
somethng bad. It was pretty sad.
Already had 3 dreams abt the same
person. And the one I forgot about...
Had two dreams. Sighs.


becoming numb``_____ 4:34 PM

20040912

LP =Take Everything From The Inside=

Damn!!! Tomoro got skool liao!!!
Shit... still haven't finish
my hw yet... haha...
and I still got time to update ah...
den later got tuition... MATHS!!!
Oh freak...


N I still haven't call
my A maths tuiton teacher to ask him
wen to make up tuition... Well...
Next week lah... haha... Wah!...
I damn slack ah... K... I promise
to be good n study n do hw... Oh!
Like real... Sighs... Well... cya
all crescent kiddos tomoro!!!


PssPss... Only one thing to look
forward to tomoro... haha...


becoming numb``_____ 3:33 PM

20040907

LP =Skool Again=

Nooooo!!! Have to go to school again!
Sighs... Just a few hour ago, I was at skool.
So sien leh! Almost everydae I have to go to school.
Mite as well not have a hol. break.
Tomoro got Chem lesson frm lyk 8 am until 1pm...



Wah!!! Sien ah... Luckily, no skool on Thurs.
Wen r they going to give us time to do the Piles of homework!!!
Sighs... And still have lyk 13 newspaper reports to do...
And 150 words on the phrasebk!!!
And must hand in on Mon itself!!!
Wah I complain alot ah... hehe...
Well... I don't think I can spend much time on
updating my blog and listen to LP songs...
Cos FINAL YEAR EXAM is in like 3 WEEKS!!!

==Completely Stressed==


becoming numb``_____ 2:43 PM

20040905

LP =Tired=

Wah!!! Yesterday was a veri long dae...
lyk super long... we came to Grassroots CC lyk at 1 pm...
the whole thng ended only at 11.30pm...
I arrived home at 12.30am... Sighs...
Damn sleepy...
I slept only at 1am...
In the morn, mum told me to follow her to Jai and Rozza's wedding at Hougang....
I came... We ate... We left... sighs... Pointless... I noe...


Aniways...
the point is about yesterdae...
It was a great but damn tiring dae...
I didn't act lah... just helping with the props...
and thts a very tiring job... Well...
the show on the whole went pretty ok except maebe the host...
ahem ahem... Wah sian ah... she was lyk so long winded...
well she's suppose to be entertaining us onli untill the music stops
but she lurv to just keep on talking abt crap... well watever lah...


Aniways...
the place was pretty nice lah...
alot of stuff was going on there...
i heard there's the 3 year old boy burfdae party...
a malay wedding... and of course our Drama Comp...
The whole comp was nice cos we met loads of pple...
both nice and weird... haha...
well i just hope tht the rest also felt the same way abt the comp as i did...
Hope you guys had a great dae too... :P


Also... CRESCENT ELDDS ROX!!!



becoming numb``_____ 6:15 PM

LP =Winning Is Definitely Not Everything=

Sighs... Well Crescent didn't won the Drama Comp but it was alright.
Well... it was all worth while...
All of us had a great day...
we saw great perfomances...
we bonded... and we explored... (hexhex)....



I still remembered wen we went to Naked Fish Shoppe for lunch...
haha... well... we were lyk late oreadi...
we ordered onli lyk 10 mins b4 we were supposed to be bck...
so obviously we were late lah...
then some of them ordered cheese cake and brownies...
the plate tht they provide was lyk so big but then the food itself was ahem ahem...
ok lah... NO...
it was pretty small... haha...



then Sharmeen and Steph ordered the kid's meal...
haha... wow... this 3G1 people have quite an appetite huh...
hehe...
so we all went up first
and then we decided to claim
that these 2 people are stuck in the toilet...
haha... what a dae....
WELL more exciting adventures to come in the next post...



becoming numb``_____ 6:05 PM