Fahimah Azman
Crescent
3[S]2'04
2[G]1'03
1[G]1'02
phoebe_for@hotmail.com
Curie
Ex-cckpian
DramaQueen aka DramaMama
ELDDS
PBMC Angklung&DK
OBS *Bo Seng 'AH' Bo Seng member*
Woodlander
Totally Obsessed
Blur Queen
Full of Nonsense
Brain dead
Sleepy Head
Born to BE and DO good :P
Optimistic
Cheerful
Dreamy
Lame
Confused
Late Comer
Messy

`-her lurf_

*Linkin Park*
*Harry Potter*
*Daniel Radcliffe*
*Chester Bennington!!!*
Misha Omar
Green!!! *Esp. Lime Green*
Chocolates
Cats *So CUTE*
Hamsters
Romantic Stuff
Acting
Debate
Angklung
ROXY
Shopping
T.V.
Comedy
The O.C.
F.r.i.e.n.d.s.
Will and Grace
Soccer
Real MAdrid
Man Utd.
Pride and Prejudice
History
Mystery books
Archie
Sweet words
Talk
Shout
Laugh
Jokes
Smile
Originality
Attitude
Elmo
Cookie Monster

`-her hate_

*War*
BitterGourd
Stress
Tension
Liars
Hypocrites
Sour Stuff
Words Of Insults
People who hate
Deceit

"Don't Hate. Only Love."

`-wishlist_

Digi Cam
A Cam phone
NEW Linkin Park album
LP book 'From the Inside: LP's meteora'
A1 for all subj(i noe its too much to ask)
Get to a good JC
To always smile
To always be myself
Happiness
A caring soulmate
Stop the obsession
The truth
For ELDDS to always be ROCKING
More Acting opportunities
Perbayu to gain recgonition
An angklung set of my own
More Friends
For EVERYONE I noe to always smile and be happy :)

`-LPLinks_

**==Lyric of the Week==**

>>Numb >>LP >>Meteora

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

`-archive_
September 2004 October 2004

MTV Cribs - Chester Bennington
Linkin Park

20050906

LP =Breaking The Habit=

GAWD! Its Been a Long
While since I updated.
Its lyk I've been ON
HOLIDAY or something.
Haha. On holiday! Reminds
u of something doesnt it?!
hehe. I just cant stop
relating everything with
Green Day lar.

Niways, I noe I said many
times that I am going to change
my blog's skin. Ok. Ok. I'm
quite fucked up lar. Cos I'm
nowhere near to finding or
making a perfect GREEN
DAY related skin. I love nadia's
blog. Gonna make something
lyk tht. Hmm. Shld I use a
black and red theme lyk her?
hrmm...

Shall care about all this after my
O's. I shldnt even be blogging lar.
But i succumbed to my temptation.
haha. so chim lar. watever.

my mum is gonna come home
from HER holiday anytime soon.
FUN IS OVER. hehe.

Speaking of fun... I went out
with nadia yest. Yesh. Loads
of fun. Cos havent go out in
ages, shes nice and its nice
to go out with a green day
fan... hehe. NOT A POSER.
pls. some pple just dont noe
how 2 see the difference. urgh.
k. kinda cranky now. DUH.
i'm so stressed i'm gonna
crack anytime soon.

I'm veri bored lar. Have to
go study again.

-Prob my last post till after
O LEVELS-

becoming numb``~~_____~~ 10:22 PM

20050701

LP =Blah=

I'm DAMN busy now a
days. Its getting on my
nerves. I cant go
blogging anymore. So
sorry if I havent been
updating. If there are
even pple who actualli
reads my blog. Haha.
Hope there are.

Aniways, many a times
I said that I wanted to
change my blog skin.
But there is barely time
for me to search for a
great skin. So this will
probably be my skin
till maebe wen 2006
comes. Then a brand
NEW look. Yep.

Next, I wanna tok abt
my SUICIDE STORY.

I actually saw a gurl
trying to commit
suicide. I was at Holland
V. yesterdae doing some
shopping. I had to cross
the overhead bridge there
to get to town. So, when
I was on it, I saw this
gurl on the floor.... with
2 other woman beside her.
Looking as though they
were advising and calming
her down. First thought
that strikes me was:
SUICIDE.

Then, I when I arrived at
the bus stop I sat down.
Soon 3 other pple came also
from the bridge and sat
at the bus stop. All of us saw
the whole thing happening.
She started shouting. I
cant really hear properly with
all the noise from the
traffic. But she was def.
threatening to jump. She
started to become deranged.
People were of course staring
and then she told them: "DONT
LOOK!" That's scary. Whats
more scarier is that moments
later she actually put one of her
legs on the ledge and threatened
to jump. The 2 woman who were
with her prob stopped her. She
almost jump. Thank god she
didnt. It was a scary exp.
The last time I saw her, she
was holding her thighs and
limping. Dunno why. I didnt
get to see what happen to
her next as my bus came.
Aniway, I didnt want to see
anything further. :(

This experience had caused
me to reflect on my own life.
It would hve been stupid of
her to commit suicide. What
wld happen to her loved
ones? Her parents? etc. Her
problem might have seem
major to her but she must
think abt others who have
even bigger probs than her.
N there are those who solve their
probs one by one. Not by
one stupid, seemingly easy
solution, killing your own
self. To me, it is a sin. Its
as though you are mocking
God's greatest creation and
giving back what God had
given you, your life.

SUICIDE IS NOT A
SOLUTION. NEVER
THINK IT IS. :)

becoming numb``~~_____~~ 9:46 PM

20050609

LP =Everything You Say To Me=

Bored. Bored. Bored.
Obssessed. Obssessed. Obssessed.

Yup. Its the hols. Had to be
dragged to skool early in the morn
n have stup lessons. K. Some
lessons are not too bad. Some
cancelled. I think the most
helpful lesson so far is the Compre
course. Really effective. I think I
can do better now.

I think.

Then the most interesting lesson
is BIO!!! haha. First time I found
Bio lesson interesting. Cos guess
wat... Its my fav topic EVER. haha.
Yes. About wat lil children like to
ask as a child : "MOMMY, WHERE
DO BABIES COME FROM???"
haha. Yes. That topic. I think its
interesting. Not just cos I'm a really
pervertic, yellow-minded person onli.
haha. But oso cos it realli is genuinely
interesting. To me aniways.

Mrs Yip must be proud of me. Haha.

Now, I'm in school. Pretty bored. Ok
lar. Get to hear songs. Thts cool. Plus
play Yahoo! Pool. My latest obssession.

That reminds me. My obssession. huh.
Lets see... He's hot, cute... sighs... N
just as I found out yesterdae, BISEXUAL.
Yes. He kisses guys and STUFF but is
married. hmmm... I got tht clip where he
kiss some guy. N 2 pics of him kissing
Mike and another guy. Yep. Disgusting.
Quite. But I thnk its hot. Haha. I just
cant explain why. haha. Oh well. My
Obssession. Not CHESTER this time. Its
BILLIE JOE. haha. Yesh. Lead singer
of Green Day. I have a thing for ROCK
STARS. N drummers. Dunno why. haha.

Yep. He's hot and cool and everythng.
I'm in LOVE with him. K lar. Perhaps
its just Infatuation. Haha. He's 33. WOW.
I just got to know this guy from Yahoo!
Pool yest. He's 33 also. From spain.
Hmm... I guess I got a thing for older
guys also... I just dunno why but I like
guys whu r not of my age. Mostly older
guys. Haha.

Sometimes I do question about my
sexuality. Am I like Billie Joe? BI.
Hmm... I'm like Alice from L word.
This lesbian show lar. Love it. I'm
SO like her. Sumtimes I cant believe
it myself. She's Bi. Preppy. umm...
Chatty... U noe... ME. haha. Crazy-
Crazy too. BUT she gets this REALLI
hot famous tennis player. Maybe some
dae I will be lyk her. haha. Yeah rite.

Niways, my taste is still for rock stars.
Or guys whu loves rock. Yep. I just
love a guy with a great sense of rock
fashion. Like Billie Joe looks. His eyes.
Lips. AHH!!! I'm going crazy! haha.
Eyeliner and everythng... haha... I lurve
that. That fair vs dark contrast u noe...
Fair skin AGAINST Black Eyeliner, Black
leather clothes, Tight pants and everythng.
Plus a red tie or bow. Nice. AND
Green eyes. AHH!!! SO HOT! I need to
search for an ANG-MOH guy for him to
have green eyes. haha.
LOVE THIS LOOK! Haha.

Gtg n play pool. Will update again soon.
I HOPE.

becoming numb``~~_____~~ 3:32 PM