AccidentallyInLove

LP =Breaking The Habit=

2005-09-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

GAWD! Its Been a Long
While since I updated.
Its lyk I've been ON
HOLIDAY or something.
Haha. On holiday! Reminds
u of something doesnt it?!
hehe. I just cant stop
relating everything with
Green Day lar.

Niways, I noe I said many
times that I am going to change
my blog's skin. Ok. Ok. I'm
quite fucked up lar. Cos I'm
nowhere near to finding or
making a perfect GREEN
DAY related skin. I love nadia's
blog. Gonna make something
lyk tht. Hmm. Shld I use a
black and red theme lyk her?
hrmm...

Shall care about all this after my
O's. I shldnt even be blogging lar.
But i succumbed to my temptation.
haha. so chim lar. watever.

my mum is gonna come home
from HER holiday anytime soon.
FUN IS OVER. hehe.

Speaking of fun... I went out
with nadia yest. Yesh. Loads
of fun. Cos havent go out in
ages, shes nice and its nice
to go out with a green day
fan... hehe. NOT A POSER.
pls. some pple just dont noe
how 2 see the difference. urgh.
k. kinda cranky now. DUH.
i'm so stressed i'm gonna
crack anytime soon.

I'm veri bored lar. Have to
go study again.

-Prob my last post till after
O LEVELS-

LP =Blah=

2005-07-01T21:46:00.001+08:00

I'm DAMN busy now a
days. Its getting on my
nerves. I cant go
blogging anymore. So
sorry if I havent been
updating. If there are
even pple who actualli
reads my blog. Haha.
Hope there are.

Aniways, many a times
I said that I wanted to
change my blog skin.
But there is barely time
for me to search for a
great skin. So this will
probably be my skin
till maebe wen 2006
comes. Then a brand
NEW look. Yep.

Next, I wanna tok abt
my SUICIDE STORY.

I actually saw a gurl
trying to commit
suicide. I was at Holland
V. yesterdae doing some
shopping. I had to cross
the overhead bridge there
to get to town. So, when
I was on it, I saw this
gurl on the floor.... with
2 other woman beside her.
Looking as though they
were advising and calming
her down. First thought
that strikes me was:
SUICIDE.

Then, I when I arrived at
the bus stop I sat down.
Soon 3 other pple came also
from the bridge and sat
at the bus stop. All of us saw
the whole thing happening.
She started shouting. I
cant really hear properly with
all the noise from the
traffic. But she was def.
threatening to jump. She
started to become deranged.
People were of course staring
and then she told them: "DONT
LOOK!" That's scary. Whats
more scarier is that moments
later she actually put one of her
legs on the ledge and threatened
to jump. The 2 woman who were
with her prob stopped her. She
almost jump. Thank god she
didnt. It was a scary exp.
The last time I saw her, she
was holding her thighs and
limping. Dunno why. I didnt
get to see what happen to
her next as my bus came.
Aniway, I didnt want to see
anything further. :(

This experience had caused
me to reflect on my own life.
It would hve been stupid of
her to commit suicide. What
wld happen to her loved
ones? Her parents? etc. Her
problem might have seem
major to her but she must
think abt others who have
even bigger probs than her.
N there are those who solve their
probs one by one. Not by
one stupid, seemingly easy
solution, killing your own
self. To me, it is a sin. Its
as though you are mocking
God's greatest creation and
giving back what God had
given you, your life.

SUICIDE IS NOT A
SOLUTION. NEVER
THINK IT IS. :)

LP =Everything You Say To Me=

2005-06-09T15:32:00.000+08:00

Bored. Bored. Bored.
Obssessed. Obssessed. Obssessed.

Yup. Its the hols. Had to be
dragged to skool early in the morn
n have stup lessons. K. Some
lessons are not too bad. Some
cancelled. I think the most
helpful lesson so far is the Compre
course. Really effective. I think I
can do better now.

I think.

Then the most interesting lesson
is BIO!!! haha. First time I found
Bio lesson interesting. Cos guess
wat... Its my fav topic EVER. haha.
Yes. About wat lil children like to
ask as a child : "MOMMY, WHERE
DO BABIES COME FROM???"
haha. Yes. That topic. I think its
interesting. Not just cos I'm a really
pervertic, yellow-minded person onli.
haha. But oso cos it realli is genuinely
interesting. To me aniways.

Mrs Yip must be proud of me. Haha.

Now, I'm in school. Pretty bored. Ok
lar. Get to hear songs. Thts cool. Plus
play Yahoo! Pool. My latest obssession.

That reminds me. My obssession. huh.
Lets see... He's hot, cute... sighs... N
just as I found out yesterdae, BISEXUAL.
Yes. He kisses guys and STUFF but is
married. hmmm... I got tht clip where he
kiss some guy. N 2 pics of him kissing
Mike and another guy. Yep. Disgusting.
Quite. But I thnk its hot. Haha. I just
cant explain why. haha. Oh well. My
Obssession. Not CHESTER this time. Its
BILLIE JOE. haha. Yesh. Lead singer
of Green Day. I have a thing for ROCK
STARS. N drummers. Dunno why. haha.

Yep. He's hot and cool and everythng.
I'm in LOVE with him. K lar. Perhaps
its just Infatuation. Haha. He's 33. WOW.
I just got to know this guy from Yahoo!
Pool yest. He's 33 also. From spain.
Hmm... I guess I got a thing for older
guys also... I just dunno why but I like
guys whu r not of my age. Mostly older
guys. Haha.

Sometimes I do question about my
sexuality. Am I like Billie Joe? BI.
Hmm... I'm like Alice from L word.
This lesbian show lar. Love it. I'm
SO like her. Sumtimes I cant believe
it myself. She's Bi. Preppy. umm...
Chatty... U noe... ME. haha. Crazy-
Crazy too. BUT she gets this REALLI
hot famous tennis player. Maybe some
dae I will be lyk her. haha. Yeah rite.

Niways, my taste is still for rock stars.
Or guys whu loves rock. Yep. I just
love a guy with a great sense of rock
fashion. Like Billie Joe looks. His eyes.
Lips. AHH!!! I'm going crazy! haha.
Eyeliner and everythng... haha... I lurve
that. That fair vs dark contrast u noe...
Fair skin AGAINST Black Eyeliner, Black
leather clothes, Tight pants and everythng.
Plus a red tie or bow. Nice. AND
Green eyes. AHH!!! SO HOT! I need to
search for an ANG-MOH guy for him to
have green eyes. haha.
LOVE THIS LOOK! Haha.

Gtg n play pool. Will update again soon.
I HOPE.

LP =Step, Step. Step Up=

2005-05-22T17:33:00.000+08:00

Star Wars Rock!!! Yep.
I watched the movie on
Thursday, 19th May.
Great Stuff there. At last
the SAGA is complete.

At last I know how Anakin
Skywalker becomes Evil,
becomes Darth Vader. He
was concerned about his
pregnant wife, Padme. He
had visions that Padme
died during child birth.
Darth Siddious (the greatest
evil guy) thus used this
opportunity to bring him
to the dark side. He convinced
Anakin that the dark side
would bring back Padme to
life and that she wont die.

Thats the basic summary of
the story. Yep. Great show.
Though I think that maybe it
is a lil too COMPUTERISED.
The evil creatures are robots
and they look kinda fake. The
background too. Not like the
classic star wars trilogy... At
least the creatures look real
and the backgrounds like the
sands look very real. The love
story between Han Solo and
Leia is also more exciting and
effective compared to the love
story between Anakin and
Padme.

Well, thats my basic review
of the last saga.

I give the movie 4 out of 5
stars. :)

LP= So Numb

2005-05-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hmph. Got bck my stup eng
and mal mid yr results... Yes
they are stupid. Urgh. N I'm
stupid. I got so LOW!!!

Damn. Oh well. I think I will
definitely be in REAP. Or
POP... or whatever the name
of this stupid time waster
thingy is... urgh. 30 points
and above will get you in
it. Everyday you would have
to stay back and study in
school. DAMN. Well I'm
definitely going to get more
than 30 points...

Well. I took a test. Its
stupid lar. haha. But yah.
Here's my results.

WHAT WISE QUOTE
FITS YOU?

Your wise quote is: "The best antiques are old
friends" by Unknown...
Your buds is the source of your happiness
(maybe not all but still). Even if it's just
one, a couple or a whole group they are the
ones you can't wait to see. It does not matter
if you're shy with everyone else or not, with
them you let your true spirit shine and can be
as loud as you want. They accept you, and you
love them for that.

What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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LP =It Doesn't Even Matter=

2005-05-15T19:07:00.001+08:00

Its a Sunday.
Went Out.
Had fun.
Loads of fun.

However, I found out
about something that
I don't really wanna noe
but had to noe. Get it?

Huh. Nvm. The point is
somebody I noe is becoming
a bloody freaking BITCH.
Bimbo. Argh. Talk about guys,
guys and more guys. Argh. It
is so irritating. Oh god. And our
enemy... her enemy... she easily
gives in to... Now, they are BEST
of FRIENDS!!! Argh.

Huh... I never knew she could
turn out to be that way. I pity her
sister, Shasha. My dear cuzzin and
fren. Poor thing. Waste her breath
advising her sister but no good
comes out from it. She won't listen.
She turned into an insolent brat. A
bimbotic bitch who all day talks abt
guys. Search for them at mcdonalds.
N brags abt her MANY admirers. Oh
GOD! Wht cld be worse!

Doesn't she realise its her fucking
PSLE year. Yes. She is only 12
years old and she is a flirtatious,
rude, bimbotic bitch. At the age
of 11 she had a bf alreadi. Thts
not such a great concern. The
thing that is so fucking irritaing
is that she doen't realise it is her
important year. What if she fails?
ARGH. Her friends cant help her
forever. She chooses her frens
rather than her own sister. Urgh.
She's getting worse by the min.
Using profanities that only the
minahs use. Shes totally changed.
Becoming more like them. I should
have seen this coming!!!

But what could we do? Both me n
Shasha are powerless. She advices
her not to be a fucking slut but she
wont listen. She wont listen to
anyone. Sighs. So irritating. Urgh.
Forget about it. No point stressing
about her. Only wreck my brain
out. Blah.

I'm going. Don't wanna think about
her anymore. What's the point of
being so concerned!? no point. Urgh.

Fuck Counter: 3
(thats how irritated i am!!!)

LP =In the End=

2005-05-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

Another SATURDAY nite.
Damn Sien. I wanna go OUT!
haha.

thts all. busy chatting. gtg.

LP =I Won't Be Ignored=

2005-05-01T13:11:00.000+08:00

On HOLIDAY!!! haha.
Whee! Listening to that
song now. Live performance
by Green Day.

Wish I could find the whole
concert video and download.
SIGHS. I osos wish they wld
come to Singapore for a
concert! I would GO!!! I wanna
GO!!!

Aniways, today my aunt went
to Desaru. SO she left her maid
with us. Haha. She's one queer
person. Loves magazines. I felt
weird. Awkward. I havent had
a maid in ages. So didnt know
how to tell her to do stuff.
"ORDER" her. haha. No lar. I'm
not so mean. Now shes vaccuming
the place.

Sighs. My mum can never trust a
maid. Cos had a bad hist of em.
But I think she should not have
been so mean to them. Shld give
them a chance. But I think shes
worried that they might do
funny stuff if shes not harsh on em.

Oh well. I should be studying BIO
now. Better go.

LP =Losing Control=

2005-04-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

Damn. Damn. Damn.
3 words which means 3
same things. Wtf. haha.
Crap. I'm SIAO now.

Got the f-ing results. Bad.
But I was kinda ok with
it. I just was happy we did
the best.

BRONZE for angklung syf!!!
ARR!!! Oh well. Wat to do?
Cant sit arnd and curse all
day long. haha.

Sighs. Oh well. A lil note for
my dearest ANGKLUNG-ists.
haha.

U guys ROCK!!! Great
stuff and playing. Not u guys
fault tht we got bronze. We
did our best and had fun.
Friendships were forged bcos
of angklung. Thts wats more
impt than anything. Cos
friendship cant be bought. Its
priceless. :D

Yeps. So dont be so sad. But
learn from this experience. YEP.
:P

Well. Im tired. Gonna go n sleep.
ZZZ. Good nites.

Damn.

LP =Fallen Apart Right In Front Of you=

2005-04-24T12:54:00.000+08:00

One thing.
I hope she liked the present.
I cant believe I gave it to her.
haha. I think I'm crazy... I
think she thinks I'm crazy.
Spent quite alot on her. Yep.
I'm crazy. Its confirmed.

Sighs... So many April babies.
I still havent give Rina a
present. So busy tht got no
time to meet her. Hw is lyk
hell... Need to study. Still
havent finish studying
peribahasa... N my malay
exam is on FRI!!! AH!!!
Stress.

Angklung SYF tomorrow. I'm
almst at the point of breaking
down. My nose is running like
a water pipe. And I feel SOOO
HOT!!! How to study?!

Angklung
costume is SO GREEN! I like the
fact that its green but why must
it be SO Luminous and itchy!!!
And the skirt is GOLD!!!

Sighs.
One last thing.
Should I message? Should I?
AHHH!!!! This is killing me!!!
Oh well.

LP =Time Is A Valuable Thing=

2005-04-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

Hey. This is my shortest post
ever. Take note. :P

I got the Lp book. Planning
to write a review of it on my
chaz blog. later. I'm really busy
this month. Thats why this is
short.

Mid-year coming. 8 more days
only. Damn scared. Thats it.
I gtg. I miss will and grace. :(

Oh well.

LP =To Live What You've Learnt=

2005-04-09T18:41:00.000+08:00

This realli NICE song is
stuck in this Big head
of mine.
Just wanna share it...

"I'm all Busted UP!
Broken bones and Nasty cuts.
Accidents will happen.
But this time I can't get
up.

She comes to check on me.
Making sure I'm on my knees.
After all she's the one.
Who put me in this state.

Is she ultra-violent OR
is she disturbed?
I better tell her that I
love her.
Before she does it I'll
love her again.
Oh God she's killing ME!

For now I lie around.
Hell thats all I could really
do.
She takes good care of me.
Just keep saying my love is
true."

- Pulling Teeth by Green Day.

LP =Afraid To Lose Control=

2005-04-09T18:27:00.000+08:00

I've decided alot of
stuff today... But there
still are some uncertanties.

Firstly, I've decided to
change the skin of my blog.
Kinda boring to have the
same design all the time...
Think its time to change.
Yep. However, i'm
uncertain. I LURVE my Blog
Skin!!! How to let it go???
haha. Pure DUMB.

Then, I've decided to not
tok so much about my life
animore in my blog. Cos,
my stup SIS is reading
my post. Not that she
doesnt have the right or
anything... but cos i
mean... IT'S MY LIFE!!!
"And its now or never!!!
I aint gonna live forever!"
- Bon Jovi. AH! Cut the
crap. haha. Sis, if you
are reading this, GOOD!
haha. Cos dont think I
dont noe your dirty lil
secret!!! HAHA! ahem...
ahem...

Aniways, I'm unceratin
again... Cos I lurve to
tok abt 'me' in my blog.
haha. Cos its a way to
express my feelins. haha.
Poor me! No ONE TO TOK 2!!!
And oso cos its MY BLOG.
so its only natural to
tok about me.haha.

Whatever lar... I have ONE
LAST THING I have not
decided yet and is NOT
certain about. Which I
am not going to tok abt
bcos i don want my big-
straight-haired sis 2 noe!!!
haha. just jokin.

The onli thing I gotta say
is... Today is a great day.
Bright and Hot. Temp: 33C
That's it.

LP =HaPPiE BuRfDaEEE!!!

2005-03-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE 29th BURFDAE,

CHESTER!

Caution: This post may contain

lameness that is beyond the

imagination of non-lame people

alike!

Today, I am very happy and proud

to announce Chester's 29th Burfdae!!!

[Clap! Clap!]

He is one very cool rockstar and

I would like to dedicate this post

to wish him a VERI HAPPIE BURFDAE!

Yep. He will always remain my

obsession. We all, fans of chester,

love you VERY MUCH! So, MUAX and

remain happie always.

LP =Eyes Ease Open=

2005-03-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

Woops. Dunno what I'm doing
here. CIP. haha. So LAME. But
at least get to play Internet.
Yups. Not doing my work.
Yep. Yep.

Well comparing to my REALLY
dark and moody previous post,
this one wont be as bad. Cause
I realise that there's no point
being foolishly upset about stupid
fucking stuff lyk that. I realise
that its you yourself who set
your own mood. If you look at
things optimistically, then things
would be different.

So, eventually, everything lies in
your own hands. And when you
actually find the real friends you
can depend on, you'll find that
life is more meaningful. haha.
stupid as it may sounds, now I
noe who I can go with during
recess.

They're real fun. I dont
need my classmates. But it feels
awkward cause they are all from
the same class and I'm not. But
I definitely dont feel like an
outsider or the outcast cause they
are really nice and great. yep.

Well, gtg. Do history. haha.

LP =My Life. My Pride. Is Broken=

2005-03-13T21:01:00.000+08:00

Nobody will ever know the
true meaning of life. Only
God knows. That is why life
has its UPS and Downs. I
think my life has many
Downs. And all I have to do
to feel better is to believe
that God is testing me. Oh
well, I may sound very
philosiphical today. But
tomorrow... Who knows?

That's life. One life. Live it.
That's what I also believe in.
I also believe that 'Kal Ho Na
Ho' : Tomorrow may never
come. And thats true. We might
not see the brighter light of life
tomorrow. But we must always
think that a glint of light could
mean hope.

All of us must think
positive. And not ever make
cutting yourself with the sharp
tip of a mathematical compass
a good way to release stress or
vent anger. Yes. Thats what I
did. The pain of cutting myself
lasted a while. But the deep pain
in my heart didn't disappear
along with the physical pain. An
emotional pain could not be
removed as easily. Because this
type of pain wounds your heart.
This is the worse type of pain.

I felt stressed, angry. Angry at
myself... My friends. Friends?
I felt lonely. My closest friend...
Hmph. She's quite a Bitch. She
treats me like SHIT sometimes.
But I still befriended her. We're
still close. Cos I couldn't leave
her alone. Nor could I leave myself
alone. I could not accept myself
to be labelled as a loner. I would
eat recess alone. Go home alone.

Cos I dont have a 'gang' or
partner that was my close friend.
So I would go down to recess with
this councellor. Even went to the
night tour with her. Why? Cos I
had no one else. I may seem happy,
Cheerful. But deep inside no one
knows me. Nor my feelings.

Sometimes I think. Do I deserve a
friend like this closest friend of
mine? Yes. The one I called bitch.
Shes moody, you have to 'suit' to
her needs , listen to her 'boy' stories
and fancy for a new teacher at
school and also I have to always
check whats her mood is like before
I can actually approach her. Argh.
This are the few things that I'm
irritated about her. Also I cant talk
to her about my two eye candy
cos shes not open minded. She wld
differently about me.

When I bought for her a burfdae
present recently, I felt unsincere
when I gave it to her. Cos there are
all this feelings I have built up in
me. I felt that she doesnt deserve the
present I bought after the way she
treats me. But, I'm the kind who
cant tell somebody that I dislike
them. Cos I just cant hurt people.
I dont like to hurt people's feelings.
Thats why I just cant stop being
close to her. Besides, we've been
friends since pri. sch.

Another part of my anger
goes to my first eye candy. During
the whole tour, I was jealous. They
walked together. Laughed. Talked.
Then I wished, I was the one talking
and laughing. It was so irritating. To
see the both of them walking alone
together. They had a 'history' before
this. They were pretty close last year.
People started to think they were
together. I was of course jealous. And
I thought are they going to start
getting close with each other again?
Argh. The whole NIGHT they were
together. Listening to songs from
the I-pod together in the bus.
Talking, Walking, Laughing. Argh.
I observed the both of them. They
suited each other. Both were tall.
Sporty. Nice legs. Obviously, they
wanted each other. Argh. And me.
Only left in my dream world. :{

My dream world. My fantasy,
virtual world is the only place where
I can go to when I felt lonely. It
brings me pleasure and happiness
that I had never felt before. "GIVE
ME NOVOCAINE!!!" I wanna get
high. Haha. Song from Green Day.

Hmph. In the real world, I'm just
a loser, blur, lost gurl in this world
surrounded by this pool of people
who cling onto each other. But
im all alone. No one to cling to. Just
have a branch to hang on to and its
going to break any time soon. Thats
shows me alone in my class. Yep.
Cant really tell alot of personal stuff
to my class partner. Feels nice to
talk to her. But can only talk to her
during class. Cos after class she
would be with her own gang. The
people shes clinging on to. This is
how I feel to be in my class. All
alone.

I look at the malay people in
my class. Sometimes I feel that its
good to not be in their gang. But
I then feel lonely. Im accepted by
them as a friend but not as a
gang. Well its not like Im as
desperate to be in their group. Its
just that sometimes I look at them
and I wish that I had a gang like
them also.

During the whole tour, I felt
lonely. Sometimes my partner
ignores me. She gets distracted wit
her hp and sometimes forgets abt
me. I had to join in this group. Well
people may think that this group
is the most guai, extra and different
but I think they're pretty ok. Took
pics with them. But only one thing
I cant stand abt them. Sometimes
when they are too consumed over
each other, they tend to forget me.

So I was sort of abandoned at
Mustafa by them. But of course
I met this close friend of mine
later on. I was having SUCH
a terrible headache. And she still
wants to go for 'this teacher'
hunting. I felt quite terrible the
whole day. Felt like slashing my
self. No joke. My heart was
burning. It was a cold night but
I felt hot. Maybe because I had
my jacket on almost the entire
night. But no. I felt hot cos my
head was pounding. Heart was
burning, becoming black ashes.

The whole night was horrid
cos... Firstly, I was all alone. I
had to face the fact that my
closest friend is a BITCH. I was
not in a gang whatsoever. I'm a
fat pig. And NO one will ever
Like me. My first eye candy esp.
This idiot would only go for
people with sexy legs. Why
do I even start this obsession!!!
ARGH.

And another thing.
I cant stand this PERSON in
my class. She's a FUCKING
BITCH. With her fucking
accent. Sitting right at the
back. Thinking she has loads
of friends. Shes a freakin loner.
PUH-lease. She's a coward.
Wont insult me in front of
people she's scared of.

AHHH! Cant wait for my
Secondary School Life to end.
In short, Cant wait to get out
of Crescent. Alot of my seniors
say i will miss it. I think I will.
A bit. Maybe 5%. But I'll
definitely NOT Miss ALL those
things that made my night tour
HORRID!!!

LP =Darkness Of My Past=

2005-03-01T20:13:00.001+08:00

Damn. Freak. I feel as though
everything has been sucked out
from me. Including my soul.
There's always a point of time
in your life when you feel that
way.

What cause me to feel this WAY?
Oh well, perhaps its about the
O'level Malay result, or is it
about the freakin fact that my
results are declining. Or issit
that I'm a freakin slacker now.
Or issit the fact that I cant stop
the obsession over my 2 eye
candy.

Oh GAWD! "GIVE ME
NOVOCAINE!!!" I WANNA GET HIGH!!!
haha. Sorry. Listening to Greenday.
Yah, song name is 'give me novocaine'.
Its a nice song. GREEEEENNNNDAY!
My oso latest obsession. My freakin
cuzzin said that the American Idiot
Album is not AS nice. But I thnk its
freakin COOOLLL.... Great songs...
Sighs... I LURVE ROCK! Maebe I
shld marry ST.JIMMY!!! haha. yesh,
oso another song from their album
that I'm listening to noe.

So I got B3 for Malay. My mum's
so FREAKIN Urgh about my
results. Oh gawd, I disappointed
alot of people. Plus I'm thoroughly
disappointed with myself for crying
yesterdae. Yesh I did. 2nd time I
cried in Crescent. Oh freak. Why
didn't I just relax. I couldn't stand
seeing the look on Cikgu's face. Oso
the faces of my other friends who
got A1. They were relax, happy,
laughing. I was just at the point of
breaking down. My mum is not
supporting me in any way but more
over is demoralising me. Sighs. Oh
well. Its over. I feel better now
compared to yesterday.

Singing: "I'm the son of rage and
love. The Jesus Of Subarbia!!!" haha.
Yesh. I oso lyk this song. I think Rock
is rockin not only because of their
cool style, nice guitars and drums tune
and Power SCREAMIN VOICES. I
oso like the lyrics. Great. Better than
POP some of them. Cos Pop is all
about fucking Love and all this bullshit.
But Rock tells load of meaning. Well
onli rockers will feel this... Cause wen
you hear Rock, only then can you
appreciate the meaning.

To people
who dislikes Rock, they feel that Rock
is just about Noise and Screaming.
Thats totally bullshit. Most Rock songs
have meanings that you have to look
beyond the surface. Well, at least most
rock songs that I know of. haha. PUNK
is Power BABE!!! haha.

Yep. Rock bands like Lp and greenday
does have deep meanings to their
songs. Eg, American Idiot is telling
people not to be like a typical American
that are Rednecks and are controlled
by the media. See. Rock has meaning.
You only have to look deeper beneath
the guitar tunes and hoarse voice. :P

COUNTER

Life's Direction: Nowhere
Hopes for a Bright Future: 0
Hopes for Obsession to stop: 0
'Freak' count: 7 (Hmph)
'Fuck' count: 1 (Good Job!!! :P)
'Bullshit' count: 2 (Onli 2!!! haha. :P)

LP =Woke Up In A Dream=

2005-02-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

SOCCER!!! Yeah! Woo-hoo!
So fun. Yeps. LURVE IT!
2 dae we had soccer prac
4 PE.

Actually, I wouldn't really call
it a practice. cos actualli not alot
of people played. just stood there.
My team was lyk the most enthu.
haha.

Quite extra n irritating
actualli. haha. But aniways, not
worse then some people who
insult me when she herself cant
play soccer. hrmph. :( Hate this
kind of people. HYPOCRITES!

Aniways, the whole practice was
fun. But its not fun 2 people who
didnt like or wasnt familiar to
soccer. Haiz... Soccer is just not
recognised in Crescent. Thats the
sad part. HATE skool cos of dis.
But some people at least even
though they dont lyk they still
tried. I appreciate em 4 tht.

It suddenly bacame a one-sided
'game'. Cos only my team is
playing and the other team
players just stand there. Or r
scared of the ball. :P I dont
understand this people sometimes.
Basketball, Netball can. But soccer,
haiz... I feel so disappointed...

Everytime it comes to soccer, pple
would moan and groan. I dont lyk
it. Wish Crescent would accept
soccer as a GREAT sport one day.

Aniways, I woke up in a dream
today. It felt SO real. I thought it
really happened. But its only a
dream after all. All my other
dreams had never felt so real.

What could it be? And my feelings...
I loved it. My heart raced when I opened
the box and read the beads of message
in it. I felt a strange feeling. The message
was something like "I love you"... I cant
remember what else it said. Does this
mean that I like the person who sent me
the box? By the way, this person is my
eye candy.

Im CONFUSED. In the dream,
I would say YES to this person who wants
to be with me. Meaning I would go out with
this person. In the dream I would. But
would I really do it if it does happen in
reality? This is SUPER confusing. Sighs.

Then, my 2nd eye candy... I watch this
person all the time. On the look for this
person. I didnt mean to always look for
this person but it happens automatically.
yep. hrmph.

well gtg.

LP =Point Of Authority=

2005-02-12T15:29:00.000+08:00

Slack WEEK! Damn. Its as
though I celebrate CNY.
During the 2 days of hols,
I didn't do anything that
seems achieving nor did I do
anything useful to improve
my sucky BIO. Oh, I did
achieve to be the world's
no. 1 slacking pig. Yup.

Now, I'm just listening to
Blink 182. Enema of the State
Album. Suddenly felt like
listening to it. While studying
Bio. Feel mor guai.

I think its not my fault that
I was so slack the whole week.
Its so FREAKING HOT. Omg.
Temp on Wed was 35.5! Its
SOOOOO HOT. I cant seem 2
get myself the mood study. Now
I understand why. Its very hot
now 2. I LURVE the fan. Ty very
much. Bcos of it Im not sweating
like a pig.

Argh. Actually, I'm in a sleepy
mood. The rays of the sun just
force my eyes to give way. damn.

Why does things happen on my
MAJOR YEAR??? And y do I blame
everything? STRESS. Actually, Its
my fault that I slack lately. Oh
well.

Aniways, no more complaining.
Feel lyk toking abt this person I still
lyk! My GAWD. This person looked
so CUTE on Tues, CNY celebration.
Even Shapnem agrees wit me. See,
she always wonders why I EVER
lyk this person.

I CANT believe I
still lyk this person. WHY??? I
don't even tok to this person evryday.
We're not even GOOD friends. More
like acquaintances. Sighs. Oh well.
I'm trying my best to forget this person.
BUT, HOW DO I FORGET SOMEBODY
SOOOO CUTE?

Hrmph. I'm going back to studying BIO.
And just forget about this SOMEBODY.

LP ='H' To The Izzo=

2005-02-07T20:07:00.000+08:00

Cross Country 2 dae! Not
that I'm excited about it...
I'm excited that its over!
Yes! My last cross country
in Crescent.

I walked all the way. Except
for the last stretch of road. Haha.
Ran all the way. 4 fun. Act as
though I ran all the way...

Quite a fun day actualli...
Though Curie didn't win the
cheering competition. But I
think its all worth it. Fun. To
be part in the mascot. Wit all
the cute and funny pple. They
are realli great. Cheered my
mood definitely!

Yep! Its all not too bad. We got
a plague thing for the sec 3s run.
Considered pretty ok for Curie.
Hope we BEAT Keller dis year.
Haha. I'm mean. But I hope 2 see
Curie victorious this yr. My lst yr
I mean. Actualli, not tht I realli
care after all. But, I feel a sense of
pride for Curie in a way. Haha.

Hmmm.... After the whole thing, we
went out. 'We' referring to Zu,
Nabilah, Syafinaz and Aisyah. yup.
We went to Lot 1. Quite fun. Though
I was extremely exhausted. I mean
after all I 'ran' 3 km. haha. Well... we
went lyk 1 round around lot 1 but it
wasn't sufficient. haha. We find that
it was too early 2 go home.

Oh yahs... We ate at Let's Eat first b4
goin shoppin. Den go buy ice cream at
Macs... Den go MORE shoppin... And a
lil quiet time reading at the Lib. Wah!
Guai ah us! hmm... Read about Hitler.
I have to give some applause to him.
He 'COLOURS' our history txtbk. haha.
Learning about him is really intersting.
And he's REALLY handsome... haha. Yar
rite. PUH-LEASE. (so bimbotic)

Aniways, the main thing is I had a great
time and now I have a tendency of not doing
my work. I'm suppose to finish up my
Mal Hw but instead I'm listening to LP
and blogging. Better get to Me work soon.

LP =Obsessed With Time=

2005-02-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

A lil' LAME rap I made
about some stuff...

Two people
They're hard to forget
Two people
Who made me felt

A pain in the stomach
and a shot through the
brain

When the paper's
crumpled up, it can't be
perfect again

One

The memories of you still
lingers
How can I ever forget the times
we've had?
The moment we had felt
like it lasted for many years
Please be my friend, it would
not be so bad

Two

Memories consuming me
It happened so fast
I felt numb
when you pass me like that
Is this all a bloody fucking test?
Or is it just a memory that
comes and go fast?

I feel bloody freaking
ARGH. Just dont feel lyk blogging
anymore. Thought the rap would
cheer me up. Well, It didn't.

LP =Forgotten Not Forgiven=

2005-01-29T09:59:00.000+08:00

YEAH! It's a Sat. Sorry I noe I
haven't been blogging in a LONGGGG
while. Been apparently busy.
Tests 3 days in a week. I'm tired
out and this its been only a month.
How am I going to last?

Well. I'm just glad I found my voice
back. Haha. Found it on the floor near
my class room. Then lost it again. But
then I didn't give up. Found it again and
now its permanently back. Yep.

So. Since I'm better now, I'm getting
things back to normal. Trying to catch
up with my hw and stuff.

Urgh! Sec 4 life... Just, My Gawd!!! I
never expected it to be so URGH. What
with the 5 days week that they implemented
on us! How busy can a sec 4 lyk me get?
Freak. So many Hw. Tests. Urgh. Weekend
A and E Maths hw. Eldds on 2 days now!

That means,
On Mon: LD.
Tues: Pbmc
Wed: Hml
Thurs: LD
Fri: Hml

My Gawd. The only freeeeee days are sat
and sun. Sigh. Now I'm strting to read HP
& order of phoenix again. I could now feel
empathteic for Harry. He's having he's OWLs.
So its lyk me. His life is just about catching up
with hw. Lyk mine.

Something bit more personal. Well. I've forgotten
abt them. I think. 'Them' refers to my two eye
candy. yep. Now, Im only in LURVE with Chester.
Haha. The two of them are forgotten but Not
forgiven. huh. That's it. Yep. Don't wanna tok
about it anymore.

Ok. Gtg back to reading HP and doing my HW.

LP =Rap patrol=

2005-01-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

Been another busy week. Been
doing lots of thinking n tht is
what i rarely do. haha. Tot abt
loads of stuff. Lyk abt studies,
life, and people.

People. Sighs. Why cant they just
get out of this big head of mine?
Why are they always in my
freakin mind? GET OUT! Its hard.
Lyk, how LONG did I take to stop
thnking abt my MAJOR pri. sch.
crush... It took 4 YEARS. 4 fckng
years just 2 get him out of my
head.

Thats one of my weaknesses. I
fall for people too easily. N when
I get into it, I cant stop getting out.
I'm SUPER obsessive. N I get my
heart broken wen I noe tht I dont
stand a SINGLE chance to be wit
tht person n find tht the person
actually isn't wht I tot 2 be. Then,
my self-esteem= 0.
Yup. Thts me. Chasing hopeless
dreams.

Just admit defeat. There's no chance
in the world tht they wld ever lyk
me. Wht's the pt of even toking abt
it?

2 pple I used to or still do like (confused).
I've been tryin to forget them but
it's fcking hard cos they appear
everywhere in my life. When I try
to faze them out, they just keep
appearing.

On Tues, when I 've been tryin
to forget abt the '2nd One', things
happen n I cant. This person's
friends keep comng round and
'hint-hint' at me. They keep sayin
: 'Where is .... ah? Havent seen ....
arnd eh!' Oh come on! I noe u guys
noe I lyk this person. So just drop
the act. But com on Im trying to
forget abt this person but sighs...
circumstances didn't allow me to.

Thts it for 2 dae. Gotta study 4
a mths test tomoro. Stupid shit
lar. I studied so hard yest nite.
Den now, its postponed. Waste
my bloody freakng energy.

*Phrases/Symbols such as 'This
person' , '2nd one' and '...' have
been used to protect the identity
of victims involved and to protect
the privacy of Ms Fahimah Azman.*
:P [LP]

LP =Crawling In My Skin=

2005-01-09T17:49:00.000+08:00

Another week has passed just lyk tht.
It was only a week ago when I was still
struggling to finish my hol. hw. A week
ago when it was still the hols. A week ago
when my sis and I sort of 'ranaway' to my
aunt's house. A week ago when I saw them
again and obsession starts to grow.

A week passed like a lightning bolt in the
sky. Soon the weekend is over and tomorrow,
a new day starts. Soon, the O' levels would
come and I would be studying so bloody hard
that I would feel as though I'm on the verge
of death; as though 'I'm one step closer to the
edge and I'm about to break.'

LP songs just depicts and tells alot of things
about life. The lyrics were wrote from the
experience and point of view of them. The
songs exhibits and exudes their pain from
all the experiences in life. This is why I
LURVE LP. More than I love food. Or the
colour green. Haha.

Well... I pray really really hard, hoping that
the sins of the innocent lives of the Tsunami
victims would be washed away. I pray for
the friends and families of these victims,
hoping that they would remain patient and
keep the memories of their loves ones deep
in the heart. Lets all pray. And hope that a
new lease of live would be given to the
survivors and others who were not involved
directly like Me for eg.

Ok. Thats it I've got to share. Now, I gtg and
study Bio and start with the new lease of life
that I'm given.

LP =The Paper's Crumpled Up=

2004-12-31T13:01:00.000+08:00

Another day has passed and soon
school would start again. Thats
doom day for the HOLIDAYS.
Obviously, everyone's complaning
tht the Hols felt really short. I did
too.

At leat, I got to go to KL dur the hols
and did some shoppin. Was fun. But
I'm jealous that SOME people get to
go to places further from KL. Like NY
for example. So lucky of this person.

Im still on my way to finishing my HW.
Hope to finish E maths by 2 dae. Ahhh!
Time runs fast. Tomorrow is 2005
alreadi! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

My New Year's Resolution:
To Lose Weight. Pass My Bio. Try to be
less obsessive. And not start to like 'ahem
ahem' again.

Yep. Oh and to not be as Lazy anymore
bcos nxt year is O'level year.

Haha. Well. Thts it. Hope my new year's
resolution would work out well. Gtg and
start doing my HW again.

LP =Stop Smothering Me=

2004-12-17T10:36:00.000+08:00

Its DOOM DAY. Another holiday is a
gonner. Sighs. School is starting in 2 weeks.
But I feel as though it has already started.
Not cos I have to go to school. But cos I have
to thnk abt the HW and MATHS tuition have
started.

OMG. There's tuition 2 dae. Sighs. Whats
more I got to strt thnking abt studying bck
again and finish up my HW. Urgh. So many
Maths Hw.

Been startng to read Bridget Jone's Diary.
Cool Book. Addictive. And really interesting.
Yeps. Gonna finish b4 school starts. I hope.
Im not really a fast reader. But If the book
is interesting, I wld finish it in no time.
Yup.

So yesterdae, I went to do a lil bit of shoppin.
Went to town. With my sis. She was in no mood
to shop. Not only cos she didn't have money 2
buy stuff but cos PMS. haha. So I bought this
pencil box tht is black and has the words 'DUH!'
on it.

I wanted to get the one wit WHATEVER! on it
but there's none tht is black in colour. Oh! My
newest obsession: BLACK. I kinda find tht blck
is a dull colour but NOW I find it cool. Must be
bcos Im going thru the period of adolesence.
haha. Yeah. Lyk one day I find this thing URGH
and the next WOW. Same thng wit guys 2.

Aniways, I also bought this chain thing tht you can
put on your pants. Only $7.50 at Samuel and
Kevin. (S&K) Usual price was $15. I bought black
bands at 77th street. Cos 3 for $1. So I bght 6.
Kinda want to change fashion. Caused by
adolesence again. Loads of changes dur this
period.

I went to Borders also. To get the From The
Inside: Linkin Park's Meteora Book. But its not
there. Sighs. Asked the very nice lady abt it and she
said it is sort of SOLD OUT. Sighs. Got to wait abt
1 or 2 weeks b4 more stock comes agian. I went to
borders a few daes b4 and found tht after all, I
checked at the wrong section. Sighs.

SO, I AM NOT THE FIRST PERSON TO
PURCHASE THE BOOK! I wanted to be. sighs.
GTG.
Need to upload my blog wit some stuff.

LP =From The Inside=

2004-12-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

Hey EVRYONE!
I'm BACK. Yup.
Been kinda missing rite.
Yeah cos I went to KL on Mon.
I didn't even noe we're going until
tht SUN itself.

So I did some shopping. Actually,
LOADS. Used my Hari Raya money
to buy some clothes. B.U.M & Diesel
totally ROCK! Bought 1 Diesel shirt
and black pants. 1 b.u.m shirt. And
2 CONVERSE shirts. Also another
pair of pants at vj jeans. Woah thts
loads of stuff.

Its pretty ok. Got ALL THAT at just
100 sing dollars. yep. Also, my mum
bought me a B.U.M. WATCH & Converse
BAG.

Gosh! I'm damn lucky. So the trip was
nice. Went to sunway lagoon on the 2nd
day. We brght my cuzzin along. So he
enjoyed like crazy. The best prt abt sunway
is definitely the thrillin wet rides. Yeah.

I went on this mat thing. Face down I went
all the way down on this slide thing. Really
cool. And also I went on this another slide thng
on a double tube with my sis.

Oh well. What a day. Been really tired on this
whole trip.

EVERYONE. There's this cool new LP book tht
just came out. BUY it. Its suppose to be in stores
today. So check it out. Shld be out at BORDERS.
Im gonna buy it tomoro. Plus I got the $20 borders
voucher.

Well gtg. Bck to some serious studying. (yeah rite) :P

LP =Encore.Do you want more?

2004-11-28T21:27:00.000+08:00

DAMN. I such in a bad mood.
My STUPID sis NOT buying
the new LP ALBUM 2 dae!!!!
Shithead. ARGHHH.

I noe I sound as though its the
end of the world but I had promised
myself to be the FIRST to buy the
album but sighs.

When I had the chance to buy, I went
all the way to the STUP shop but found
that the ALBUM is NC-16. REALLY
STUP Rite....

Urghh... Ok. Stop complaining. I can get
it tomorow. Won't DIE. still will get it
just need to wait a few more hours. DAMN!
A FEW MORE HOURS!!! AHHH!

Ok ok. stop now. Aniways, today went to
jalan raya wit friends AGAIN. Wah damn
tired. yesterday went wit my crescent
frens n today wit my cckps frens. N den
tomoro some of my another frieds want
2 go out again. Wah that wil make it 3
days of jalan raya!!! But Im not goin.
LAZY!!!

Go collection alot of times ready.
ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP.
And then yesterday, they jalan raya untill
like 1 am in the morn. SIAO AH.
Luckily I had to go half way. If I follow them
I would be DAMN tired ah.

Well. I've had enough of collection ready.
Time OUT.

Now I dont think I like him animore. yep.
or maybe... he can be irritating but he share
alot of interests wit me. dunno whther tht
means I like him or just like him as a BRUDDER.
haha.

Hmm... then there's this other guy. hu I find
cute in a non pysical manner. Well, kinda
forgot abt him. Dunno whether I still like him
anot.

I dun feel like talking about GUYS anymore.
Talking abt them is painful and very MUCH
CONFUSING. Sighs.

Gtg and Sleep. WHAT A DAY!

LP =ChazTheObsession=

2004-11-23T19:55:00.000+08:00

VISIT:
http://chaztheobsession.blogspot.com

WELL, today was a pretty
busy day 4 me. I started doing
my hw. AT LAST.

AND AT LAST...
My blog, that I told about
in the previous posts, is
finally COMPLETED.

I just had its GRAND LAUNCH
a few minutes ago. The Launch
was attended by only the V.I.P
(guess who...) ME!!!

Of course Im the V.I.P.
Im the greatest fan of Chester
who sacrificed all her time to
create the ONE AND ONLY
CHAZY CHAZ BLOG.
hehe. Me and my crappiness...

Aniways, I did say I started on
my hw but actually most of the
day wasn't spent on it. But spent
on the production of my NEW
BLOG.

Well, just hoping and wishing that
all you peeps, fan of chester or not,
would really LIKE my blog, what more
to LOVE it.

PLEASE AND DO VISIT:
http://chaztheobsession.blogspot.com/

LP =I'm about to break=

2004-11-20T10:30:00.000+08:00

Now Im listening to Linkin Park.

WOOHOO!
Hexhex. Listening to their very

first album Hybrid Theory. Cool

name huh. Now listening to

One Step Closer. I never ever get

bored of LP songs. I think all

their albums are cool.

Can't wait for the latest one!!! Its

a cool album feat. Jay-Z.Its called

"Collision Course" because its lyk

a collision btw LP and Jay-Z.

So cool!!! Album coming out on the
30th Nov. Can't wait 2 buy it!!!

I'll be 1 of the 1st to buy it.

YEPSSS.

PPLE! go to Linkin Park.com to

listen to the numb/encore song. Its

one of the songs in the new album

feat. Jay-Z. Its real nice and cool.

Also check out the video on mtv.com.

REALLY COOL.

Its all abt the making of the video.

yepss.

So im still obsessed about drum

roll>>>>>>>>>>>
LINKIN PARK!!!

Now listening to CRAWLING.

Chester's voice coming out
YEAH... His voice gives me the

chills. (in a good way)
"There's something inside me that

holds beneath the surface"

Here's some more... "Discomfort

endlessly has pulled itself upon me"
I love the prts tht chester sing
which are UMMM.

His voice damn power.

Well, I gtg. Gtg and work on a new

blog im making. Its dedicated to

chester bennington, lead singer of LP.

yepss. Its going to be out soon.

DONT WORRY FANS OF CHESTER!!!

hehe. :P

LP =Guilty By Association=

2004-11-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae was a very
interesting day. Haha.
Loads of juicy scandals
and conflicts happenin.
And this issues are btw
me n my family.
I mean normally dis
kind of thing r not family
related issues.

Well, it all started when
me, my cuzzins, my
parents n 2 of my aunties
went out 4 jalan-jalan raya
yesterdae. They first went
2 my hse. Then we watch
dis scary movie while time
passes by. Was quite fun
2 watch wit my family.

One of the conflicts is btw
2 of my cuzzins. Well one
thnk tht the other is big
headed bcos he got a gurl.
Then she started 2 dislyk
him. He tried to be nice 2
her. But she always diss
him off. So he oso start
2 dislike her. N they have
some quarrels at the diff.
hses we go to. I tried to
calm down the situation.

Like a 'corrector' or sumthng
I tried to listen to the stories
from both sides and try to
find out the root of the
problem. Tried to get them
2 befriend each other again.
I failed cos their
arguements continued 2 the
point when they strt to insult
each other. I noe how each of
em felt cos actually nobody's
right or wrong. Its just a
misunderstanding. I hope
everythng wil b alright.

Then, there's this scandal.
Dis gurl cuzzin of mine thnks
tht this guy cuzzin likes her
just bcos she stared at her.
I thnk it meant nuthing cos
I noe my guy cuzzin. He have
better taste in gurls. and he
does not show any signs tht
he lyk her. Well, the news
is out. So now the whole
world noes abt this scandal.

I thnk dis gurl cuzzin is really
very 'PERASAAN'. Well, I thnk
she actually likes him. Its
stupid cos we all r cuzzins. Its
very disgusting 2 b lyking each
other cos we r family.

Upppsss...
Reality check fahimah!!!
I thnk you've fallen for someone
tht can be considered ur family 2.
So how can u say tht she lyking her
own cuzzin is wrong wen u might oso
have a secret 'AHEM AHEM'?
Omg. Im talking to myself. haha.

So thts all tht happened yesterdae.
I mite have 2 go to my aunt's hse
again 2 dae cos I left somethng at
her place.

And gtg plan jalan raya wit my
frens. Hope everythng goes well
dis year cos this is the last year
we can have fun. Nxt yr the O's
clash wit Hari Raya. Sighs.

LP =Memories Consuming Me=

2004-11-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is HARI RAYA!!!
Actually, 10 more mins to Hari Raya!
Gosh, today ah pig out lyk wat...
Got rendang, sambal udang, LONTONG!!!
YUMMY...

And the kuihs...
Tmr I'm gonna wake up early to make
some mini muffins... hehe... I thnk
they're gonna make pple crazy...

LP =You like to think you're never wrong=

2004-11-09T11:38:00.000+08:00

Wow...
Im feeling so bummed.
Cos some pple just make
me feel tht way.

Firstly, I was on the way
of becoming 2nd MC for
the band concert. But
cos of 5 stup mins, I end
up losing the 'job'.
Oh well. I was planning of
not goin anyways, wanted
to avoid someone.

Secondly, some pple just
likes to boss pple around
but does't want to do any
work. Quite pissed wit this
person sometimes. It just fits
the title of this post. Cos this
person like to think that she's
always right. Yeps.

Thirdly, has actually nothing
to do wit being bummed up
but more of being totally
the opposite of bummed up.
Yeah. Its the feeling of finding
someone rather cute. Actually,
very cute. This person possess
a natural charm, funny and
cute. (As in not cute physically)

I wish I could meet this person
more often. Well actually we
would. But I hope this person
would be more than just an
accquaintance. I want to get
to know this person better.
:) *Winx*

Well, I've been pretty busy
this past few days. What with
my PBMC stuff like angklung
and the drama collaboration.
I hope everything would work
out well wit the drama. Just as
long as Cres and SJI dont fight
and it would be ok. haha.

About angklung... I dont know ah.
Had not practiced, not once, during
the hols. Im pretty worried tht
we wont be able to make it for
SYF.

Sighs... Got to go and help my mother
make kuih raya. (Hari Raya Tarts)
I cant wait for Hari Raya, cos I get to
eat again. :P

LP =I wanna Runaway=

2004-10-24T11:42:00.000+08:00

Today I had to go to agama
in the morn. yeah.
den now im bck at home
just sitting arnd
digging nose

So as I was saying abt
the new blog I wanted to
create... Im gonna make
it today...

Den abt my results.
Disgusting marks.
yah. wen i look at my marks
I feel lyk puking.

I can't believe I did so badly
for Bio EOY. Got F9!!!
I neva did so badly. So I bloody
disappointed ah.

I aim to do better nxt yr
every year thts my revolution
but nuffing is better. Oh well.

LP =Graffiti Decorations=

2004-10-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

Now I'm at my aunt's place.
So far ok lah this 2 daes.
Got a 2 days break from
school. I get to play the comp.
My sis not at home so she
can't conquer the comp all
2 herself.

So I got to check out some
cool LP sites. And the LP
song tht I realli lyk now is
"FORGOTTEN" frm the
Hybrid Theory album.

Its a cool song. It shows
Chester's vocal power. And
how his vocal range. I oso
lyk the music and tune of
the song. ESP. the DJ parts
when Mr Hahn wld spin the
CDS. Those part r real cool.

Well. Tomoro got sch again.
Goin to watch sum show
at sci centre. Have to pay
7 bucks for it. watever lah.
well. im goin to sch just bcos
there's HML tomoro.
O level cuming. so the lessons
are important. Well gtg. cya
cres kidos 2 moro.

LP =CHESTER!!!=

2004-10-01T19:14:00.000+08:00

Tot I'd take a rest for a while
Tak a break from all the
STRESS.

I'm thinking of creating
another blog. A blog for fans
of Chester Bennington, lead
singer of Linkin Park.
But I'm doin that onli after
exams.

Well. I have been realli HAPPY
dis past few days. NOT bcos exams
r coming but... haha... shhhh...
its a secret... so cannot say ah.

The point is that this person
have made me real happy cos
now this person starts to talk
to me. Whether the conversation
is only a few secs or what...
it realli made me happy. :P

Yeah. It made me feel that this
person noe that I exist in this
world. I really lyk to be this person's
friend. This person is real cute, friendly
and charming.

Like after one of the exam dates,
this person talk to me and tell me what
this person wrote. But its like I had to
approach this person then this person
would talk to me.

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!
THIS PERSON SMILED AT ME!
so i smiled bck. I was damn happy
abd over the CLOUDS.

SO far, only 2 pple noe that I still
like and eyecandy this person. I'm
so OBSESSED. With this person and
CHESTER!!!

WHY MUST IT BE DUR. THE EXAMS???

Well... I'm going to go back to studying.

REMINDER 4 ME:
2 more DAYS to my BURFDAE!!!

LP =You've Become A Part Of Me=

2004-09-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

I'm DAMN OBSSESSED!!!
What is the cure for these
obsessions?

First, my obsession
starts with hmmm...
loads of stuff
Lyk I had the obsession for
Harry Potter n Daniel Radcliffe
Den obsession with SPIDERMAN
Hmmm... Charmed, O.C
F.r.i.e.n.d.s
(wil always be obsessed wit it)

AND CURRENTLY (drum roll);P

LINKIN PARK!!!

Yeah. Yesterdae and Tuesday,
I was supposed to be studying
but instead of tht I was too
OBSESSED!

I just had to surf the net
and check out about LP
get more pics n videos of em

Oh my latest OBSESSION is
CHESTER BENNINGTON!

Its just tht his voice just
melts my heart
ESP. wen he sings songs
lyk MY DECEMBER and
BREAKING THE HABIT

And HE just gives me ENERGY
wen he screams his head off
LP is so DAMN COOL...
I LUV CHESTER!!! HE ROX!

OK FAHIMAH BCK TO REALITY CHANNEL!!!
Sighs. Tomoro: ENG EXAM.
What If I fail???
I damn scared leh...

BACK TO MY OBSESSION.

I'm still obsessed with ... (SECRET INFO)
But not as obsessed
Cos dun see ... tht often animore!
Forget abt ... CUTENESS...

Well good luck to everione
FOR THEIR EXAMS K!!!

LP =You'll Always Be My Fear=

2004-09-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

Wah Im so busy this past few weeks!!!
Ahh... Got so many Homewok...

So many tests! EXAM COMING!

STRESS!!! TENSION!!!

Oooh.Tht reminds me. A bit of LP

(I noe I crazy abt LP lah)

Lp== A place for my head

I'm so sick of the TENSION

Sick of the hunger

Sick of you acting like

I'm owe you this

Find another place to feed your greed

while I find a place to rest

I should have just said it to her!!!

What I'm so afraid of?

You'll always be my FEAR!!!

I have nothing to lose or gain! WHY???

Today, If I say it... So paiseh!!!

Nevermind... Today...

Without her knowing...

I shall say it...

HAPPY BURFDAE!

May your life be blessed with happiness!!!

:P

LP =I'm so tired of this deceit=

2004-09-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

Bah!!! Today.Its me.
In skool. Yeah. Still
In skool at this time.
Sighs. Where? At comp lab.
Hehe. Borrowed Stephen King's
book frm Lib.

Hehe. Want to be
Nerd. But where got time to
read book now? Must go n study!
haha. I'm still struggling to
finish my hw and I wanna talk
abt studying!!! Still got reading
portfolio stuff to finish. Sighs.
Today. Finished Lesson at 3.30.
Lit lesson. Damn tired. Slept a
while during free period just now.
Went into a deep freaking sleep.
yeah.

Well, had a dream yesterday. About
two pple in one night. Was it nice?
Or it bad? Or did it mean sumthng
bad? I rmb one of the dreams. The
other, I'm trying bloody hard to
rmb wat it was abt.
wat issit abt? Hmmm... I hate it wen
I forget. I have to squeeze my brain
out just to rmb. WHAT ISSIT???

Wen I rmb, I'll be so happy. Haha...
The first dream... I thnk it meant
somethng bad. It was pretty sad.
Already had 3 dreams abt the same
person. And the one I forgot about...
Had two dreams. Sighs.

LP =Take Everything From The Inside=

2004-09-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

Damn!!! Tomoro got skool liao!!!
Shit... still haven't finish
my hw yet... haha...
and I still got time to update ah...
den later got tuition... MATHS!!!
Oh freak...

N I still haven't call
my A maths tuiton teacher to ask him
wen to make up tuition... Well...
Next week lah... haha... Wah!...
I damn slack ah... K... I promise
to be good n study n do hw... Oh!
Like real... Sighs... Well... cya
all crescent kiddos tomoro!!!

PssPss... Only one thing to look
forward to tomoro... haha...

LP =Skool Again=

2004-09-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

Nooooo!!! Have to go to school again!
Sighs... Just a few hour ago, I was at skool.
So sien leh! Almost everydae I have to go to school.
Mite as well not have a hol. break.
Tomoro got Chem lesson frm lyk 8 am until 1pm...

Wah!!! Sien ah... Luckily, no skool on Thurs.
Wen r they going to give us time to do the Piles of homework!!!
Sighs... And still have lyk 13 newspaper reports to do...
And 150 words on the phrasebk!!!
And must hand in on Mon itself!!!
Wah I complain alot ah... hehe...
Well... I don't think I can spend much time on
updating my blog and listen to LP songs...
Cos FINAL YEAR EXAM is in like 3 WEEKS!!!

==Completely Stressed==

LP =Tired=

2004-09-05T18:15:00.001+08:00

Wah!!! Yesterday was a veri long dae...
lyk super long... we came to Grassroots CC lyk at 1 pm...
the whole thng ended only at 11.30pm...
I arrived home at 12.30am... Sighs...
Damn sleepy...
I slept only at 1am...
In the morn, mum told me to follow her to Jai and Rozza's wedding at Hougang....
I came... We ate... We left... sighs... Pointless... I noe...

Aniways...
the point is about yesterdae...
It was a great but damn tiring dae...
I didn't act lah... just helping with the props...
and thts a very tiring job... Well...
the show on the whole went pretty ok except maebe the host...
ahem ahem... Wah sian ah... she was lyk so long winded...
well she's suppose to be entertaining us onli untill the music stops
but she lurv to just keep on talking abt crap... well watever lah...

Aniways...
the place was pretty nice lah...
alot of stuff was going on there...
i heard there's the 3 year old boy burfdae party...
a malay wedding... and of course our Drama Comp...
The whole comp was nice cos we met loads of pple...
both nice and weird... haha...
well i just hope tht the rest also felt the same way abt the comp as i did...
Hope you guys had a great dae too... :P

Also... CRESCENT ELDDS ROX!!!

LP =Winning Is Definitely Not Everything=

2004-09-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

Sighs... Well Crescent didn't won the Drama Comp but it was alright.
Well... it was all worth while...
All of us had a great day...
we saw great perfomances...
we bonded... and we explored... (hexhex)....

I still remembered wen we went to Naked Fish Shoppe for lunch...
haha... well... we were lyk late oreadi...
we ordered onli lyk 10 mins b4 we were supposed to be bck...
so obviously we were late lah...
then some of them ordered cheese cake and brownies...
the plate tht they provide was lyk so big but then the food itself was ahem ahem...
ok lah... NO...
it was pretty small... haha...

then Sharmeen and Steph ordered the kid's meal...
haha... wow... this 3G1 people have quite an appetite huh...
hehe...
so we all went up first
and then we decided to claim
that these 2 people are stuck in the toilet...
haha... what a dae....
WELL more exciting adventures to come in the next post...