Fahimah Azman
Crescent
3[S]2'04
2[G]1'03
1[G]1'02
phoebe_for@hotmail.com
Curie
Ex-cckpian
DramaQueen aka DramaMama
ELDDS
PBMC Angklung&DK
OBS *Bo Seng 'AH' Bo Seng member*
Woodlander
Totally Obsessed
Blur Queen
Full of Nonsense
Brain dead
Sleepy Head
Born to BE and DO good :P
Optimistic
Cheerful
Dreamy
Lame
Confused
Late Comer
Messy

`-her lurf_

*Linkin Park*
*Harry Potter*
*Daniel Radcliffe*
*Chester Bennington!!!*
Misha Omar
Green!!! *Esp. Lime Green*
Chocolates
Cats *So CUTE*
Hamsters
Romantic Stuff
Acting
Debate
Angklung
ROXY
Shopping
T.V.
Comedy
The O.C.
F.r.i.e.n.d.s.
Will and Grace
Soccer
Real MAdrid
Man Utd.
Pride and Prejudice
History
Mystery books
Archie
Sweet words
Talk
Shout
Laugh
Jokes
Smile
Originality
Attitude
Elmo
Cookie Monster

`-her hate_

*War*
BitterGourd
Stress
Tension
Liars
Hypocrites
Sour Stuff
Words Of Insults
People who hate
Deceit

"Don't Hate. Only Love."

`-wishlist_

Digi Cam
A Cam phone
NEW Linkin Park album
LP book 'From the Inside: LP's meteora'
A1 for all subj(i noe its too much to ask)
Get to a good JC
To always smile
To always be myself
Happiness
A caring soulmate
Stop the obsession
The truth
For ELDDS to always be ROCKING
More Acting opportunities
Perbayu to gain recgonition
An angklung set of my own
More Friends
For EVERYONE I noe to always smile and be happy :)

`-LPLinks_

**==Lyric of the Week==**

>>Numb >>LP >>Meteora

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

`-archive_
September 2004 October 2004

MTV Cribs - Chester Bennington
Linkin Park

20050301

LP =Darkness Of My Past=

Damn. Freak. I feel as though
everything has been sucked out
from me. Including my soul.
There's always a point of time
in your life when you feel that
way.

What cause me to feel this WAY?
Oh well, perhaps its about the
O'level Malay result, or is it
about the freakin fact that my
results are declining. Or issit
that I'm a freakin slacker now.
Or issit the fact that I cant stop
the obsession over my 2 eye
candy.

Oh GAWD! "GIVE ME
NOVOCAINE!!!" I WANNA GET HIGH!!!
haha. Sorry. Listening to Greenday.
Yah, song name is 'give me novocaine'.
Its a nice song. GREEEEENNNNDAY!
My oso latest obsession. My freakin
cuzzin said that the American Idiot
Album is not AS nice. But I thnk its
freakin COOOLLL.... Great songs...
Sighs... I LURVE ROCK! Maebe I
shld marry ST.JIMMY!!! haha. yesh,
oso another song from their album
that I'm listening to noe.

So I got B3 for Malay. My mum's
so FREAKIN Urgh about my
results. Oh gawd, I disappointed
alot of people. Plus I'm thoroughly
disappointed with myself for crying
yesterdae. Yesh I did. 2nd time I
cried in Crescent. Oh freak. Why
didn't I just relax. I couldn't stand
seeing the look on Cikgu's face. Oso
the faces of my other friends who
got A1. They were relax, happy,
laughing. I was just at the point of
breaking down. My mum is not
supporting me in any way but more
over is demoralising me. Sighs. Oh
well. Its over. I feel better now
compared to yesterday.

Singing: "I'm the son of rage and
love. The Jesus Of Subarbia!!!" haha.
Yesh. I oso lyk this song. I think Rock
is rockin not only because of their
cool style, nice guitars and drums tune
and Power SCREAMIN VOICES. I
oso like the lyrics. Great. Better than
POP some of them. Cos Pop is all
about fucking Love and all this bullshit.
But Rock tells load of meaning. Well
onli rockers will feel this... Cause wen
you hear Rock, only then can you
appreciate the meaning.

To people
who dislikes Rock, they feel that Rock
is just about Noise and Screaming.
Thats totally bullshit. Most Rock songs
have meanings that you have to look
beyond the surface. Well, at least most
rock songs that I know of. haha. PUNK
is Power BABE!!! haha.

Yep. Rock bands like Lp and greenday
does have deep meanings to their
songs. Eg, American Idiot is telling
people not to be like a typical American
that are Rednecks and are controlled
by the media. See. Rock has meaning.
You only have to look deeper beneath
the guitar tunes and hoarse voice. :P

COUNTER

Life's Direction: Nowhere
Hopes for a Bright Future: 0
Hopes for Obsession to stop: 0
'Freak' count: 7 (Hmph)
'Fuck' count: 1 (Good Job!!! :P)
'Bullshit' count: 2 (Onli 2!!! haha. :P)

becoming numb``~~_____~~ 8:13 PM